I am tired of this week. It has been a very long one. I have always said that I'm not a very good alone person & this week has just proven that in spades. I like to be around people & be socially interactive--I'm not saying that I cannot be alone--I just don't enjoy it as much as being with someone or a group of someones. Normally my approach to difficult times is to continue to have a positive outlook & push through but that is under normal circumstances. With my son away, work over for the summer, etc., etc., I feel adrift. If one aspect of my regular structure were in place--say, summer work were one more week, I think I'd have been in much better shape because I'd have some focus. I am a person who requires regular structure--I don't know what to do with myself when there isn't. I must say however, that my support system of friends has been phenomenal. They knew that this week would be a toughie, & they went out of their way to hang in there with me--through my funks & frustrations. It is funny--most people long to just have nothing to do--vacation, etc. For me, I like to have something to do--which is one major reason why I choose to work during the summer when a lot of education folk take off. I know myself & this week has been a good example of what I try to avoid at all costs. Last year I had Amsterdam to focus upon when I knew that work would be over & I would need to find something to occupy my time--also racing on about 7 different boats helped as well--this year I have one boat for the most part (I'm not complaining because it has been great) & so I'm more limited in the races I do. This imposed exile is coming to an end--and I will be better. Pretty soon my son will be home from camp & we will establish our rhythm once more. But tonight & most of tomorrow still loom--sigh.
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