Wednesday, January 11, 2012

2 Years & Counting

This is the springtime of my loving - the second season I am to know
You are the sunlight in my growing - so little warmth I've felt before.
It isn't hard to feel me glowing - I watched the fire that grew so low.

It is the summer of my smiles - flee from me Keepers of the Gloom.

Speak to me only with your eyes. It is to you I give this tune.
Ain't so hard to recognize - These things are clear to all from
time to time. 

--Led Zeppelin  "The Rain Song"
Funny how songs pop up that have instant meaning.  I am listening to Radio Paradise--it is an online "radio station" which I love--they play such a cool variety of songs & usually & uncannily they seem to match my mood quite a bit.  It is raining & I sit here waiting for Xing Fu so that we can have dinner & I've turned introspective.  "The Rain Song" came on & it just fit so well.  Xing Fu teases me because I get tired of hearing Led Zep all of the time on his XM satellite especially since they seem to only play "Stairway to Heaven" or "Kashmir" & ask him to turn it off.  But I'd forgotten about about this song--how beautiful it is & how peaceful.  It reminds me of how I am with Xing Fu--peaceful.

Narrowing down on 2 years together--I am such an incurable romantic--I go back & re-read posts & old emails--because sometimes I have to pinch myself that what has happened with us has happened & that two years later I'm even more sure of where we're headed together.  Have we been lucky, was it timing, synchronicity, or all of the above?  I remember writing about "Red Flags" at one point early on in our relationship & now, I still find that overall there just aren't any.  Sure, there are the realities of any relationship that has developed over a longer period of time--we don't always see eye to eye, believe it or not & we have had a couple wicked arguments.  But those are few & far between & for the most part we tend to resolve our issues through discussion--it may be heated but it is discussed & not hidden to fester into resentment.  I also think about the idea of fighting fair--all of the advice columns talk about that--not calling names, belittling during an argument, etc.  And the cool thing is that we don't do any of those things.  I used to so I'm kinda hyper-aware of that & other bad behaviors from my past.  But they seem not to be there.  My friends & family remark on how much calmer I am now--I think I am too--Xing Fu makes me feel happy & warm; glowing, if you will--even 2 years out.  Yeah, it's not that "head-over-heels" kind of love where I was giddy ALL of the time for about six months (probably more), but a quieter one, a content one.  A happy frog one.

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