Friday, April 2, 2010
to make a mountain of
your life is just a choice
but i never learned enough
to listen to the voice that told me
hate will get you every time
don't wait til the finish line
slow demands come around
squeeze the air and keep the rest out
it helps to write it down
even when you then cross it out
--Nada Surf Always Love
Xing Fu always seems to know when I need some reassurance & he always knows exactly what to say--he told me today that he was lucky--lucky to be with me & lucky to have met me, etc. I needed to hear that. But I am the lucky one--This is a man who catches the red-eye & gets home a day earlier after being away on business for most of the week (my mom said that action exceeds her expectations of a great BF), seems to intuitively say what I'm thinking, & makes me feel so cherished. I know I sound a little over the top but I've waited one hell of a long time to be treated in a way that I should--I only hope that I am exceeding his expectations. In 20 years I hope I can still feel the way I do--hell, in 30 years!
Lucky me--looking at a few of my friends' recent Facebook posts--they're looking for their Prince Charmings & so far they're still kissing the frogs like I was. I keep reassuring them that if I have been lucky (& is it luck? karma? fate? another question to ponder in the future), they will as well--have hope & maybe read a bit of Lori Gottlieb's book as well as think about not wasting time on the losers who don't treat you right--a la He's Just Not That Into You. My good friend MAC seems to have followed that advice & is currently snuggling up to a man who also treats her like gold so she knows exactly how I feel too. One of the points that I like from Gottlieb's book is that she says that single women needn't fall for that old line of being great on their own--if you want a partner for the rest of your life then why shouldn't you? It's not a weakness. That was a freeing statement for me--I used to operate under the incorrect assumption that the mere fact that I wanted to share my life with someone was a weakness. Lucky it ain't.