Thursday, June 10, 2010
It's beginning--the family is descending upon us....not a bad thing, but now all this prep is becoming a reality. Not sure I'm ready for prime time yet. I'm nervous & stressed but my kid--cool as cool can be--go figure, mebbe Saturday will be a different story. I was so tense yesterday (mostly because of work related stuff), that I had...to....go...sailing.....(even if it was a Wednesday anyway). Good race--only 3 of us crewing but we made it around the course & didn't finish at the bottom.
But I digress, this Bar Mitzvah thingy has really taken on a life of it's own. I worry about the family dynamics (of which there are at least a few), my ex & his baggage (praying he's on his best & least obtrusive behavior), all the little details that we haven't thought about, etc., etc., etc.,....all I want to do right now is escape...Calgon, take me away!
I am quite excited & proud of my kiddo--he really has great presence & has got this truly under control--he's treated the whole experience with the right attitude, with respect, & with what I feel is true understanding--he's studied hard & consistently practiced. I think he can look back on his day Saturday and see that he did "become a man" in some ways. Right now he's gone to the baseball game with his cousins--glad he has the opportunity, as I did last night, to unwind & not think about Saturday & its implications. But I, time to hit the ground running....so much to do, so little time.